My journaling
Okay so I decided that since I posted the challenge I should at least complete my part of the challenge. I am choosing to write about the day I realized being a mom was the most important thing I had done in my life.
I remember one day a few months after Caden was born I was out to lunch with a few fellow moms. During lunch a friend walked up to me whom I hadn't seen in quite some time. She slyly said to me so I see you are "mommy" once again. I am not sure why but the statement really embarrassed me. I felt so low. I felt like someone who had done nothing special with her life. Here I was being mommy and not working in the big career of journalism I was sure I would some day be. What had I done with my life. What happened to the person who graduated with honors. The person who upon graduation had received several acceptances to big universities with scholarship offers. What happened to the person who swore her career was going to be the center of her life. Well that person had sunk to the menial job of "mommy". The more the day went on the more depressed I became. All I could reflect on were the things I had not accomplished. I reflected on silly things such as instead of wearing the latest hip smelling perfume I was wear Eau De Caden's spit up. Instead of shopping at Nordstrom I was shopping at Target. Instead of the nice career type clothes I traded those in for whatever was comfortable that day. That night I went home just severely depressed but something deep down was bothering me even more than the fact there were things I hadn't done. Then all of a sudden Caden smiled for the first time. You know that real smile. The one you know is him recognizing you and showing you he cares. That was the smile that did me in. It was right then and there I realized I was more than just mommy, I was someone's mommy. I had done something special with my life, I had brought two beautiful children into this world. Who cared if I hadn't done all those things yet I once aspired to. My most important job was right here right now with these two children who needed me. God sent them to me as an eye opener. He wanted me to cherish them and love them as they justly deserved to be loved. I am so happy to be "mommy". There is plenty of time left to do those other things and some day I will. But not until the time is right!
I remember one day a few months after Caden was born I was out to lunch with a few fellow moms. During lunch a friend walked up to me whom I hadn't seen in quite some time. She slyly said to me so I see you are "mommy" once again. I am not sure why but the statement really embarrassed me. I felt so low. I felt like someone who had done nothing special with her life. Here I was being mommy and not working in the big career of journalism I was sure I would some day be. What had I done with my life. What happened to the person who graduated with honors. The person who upon graduation had received several acceptances to big universities with scholarship offers. What happened to the person who swore her career was going to be the center of her life. Well that person had sunk to the menial job of "mommy". The more the day went on the more depressed I became. All I could reflect on were the things I had not accomplished. I reflected on silly things such as instead of wearing the latest hip smelling perfume I was wear Eau De Caden's spit up. Instead of shopping at Nordstrom I was shopping at Target. Instead of the nice career type clothes I traded those in for whatever was comfortable that day. That night I went home just severely depressed but something deep down was bothering me even more than the fact there were things I hadn't done. Then all of a sudden Caden smiled for the first time. You know that real smile. The one you know is him recognizing you and showing you he cares. That was the smile that did me in. It was right then and there I realized I was more than just mommy, I was someone's mommy. I had done something special with my life, I had brought two beautiful children into this world. Who cared if I hadn't done all those things yet I once aspired to. My most important job was right here right now with these two children who needed me. God sent them to me as an eye opener. He wanted me to cherish them and love them as they justly deserved to be loved. I am so happy to be "mommy". There is plenty of time left to do those other things and some day I will. But not until the time is right!
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Oh, Amy, that's so moving ... made me misty ...
Mom-hood is so under-rated!
OMG! You preach it, Sista! I'm right there with you! This is awesome, awesome journaling.
Great journaling! "Mommy" is such an important job - thanks for the reminder!!
AMAZING you know and have spoken so well how important being a mommy is and how it is the most important job we will ever do but get the least recognition by pay for lololol your journaling is beautiful THAT So needs to be on a page :)
Fantastic journaling!
Yeah! you go Amy! More moms need to read this and feel this and we will have more children feel loved and more moms who know how important they really are! AND WE NEED MORE MEN to read it too!
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